The human behind it
About Me
Almost a decade addicted. Eight overdoses. Fifteen years with a narcissist. Homeless. And then — slowly, messily — everything back twofold.
My story
I did not just study recovery. I survived it.
I spent almost a decade addicted to alcohol, meth, and fentanyl. I overdosed eight times. I was married to a covert narcissist for 15 years — he introduced me to hard drugs in my late 20s. I stayed because my son was held over my head like a game piece. Parental alienation is real, it is traumatizing, and I believe it should be considered child abuse.
I developed an eating disorder. Major depression. Suicidal ideation that got so loud I almost listened. I suffered emotional, mental, and physical abuse. I became homeless. I lived in my car for seven months just to get away.
I had to start completely over from scratch. Rebuild relationships with my family the best I could. Learn how to be a mother again. A grandmother. A friend. A functioning member of society — all while carrying CPTSD so debilitating I could barely leave the house.
The first 18 months, I could hardly take care of myself. I would not shower or brush my teeth for weeks. Could barely get out of bed. My thinking was distorted. I trusted no one. I secluded and isolated for over a year because I forgot how to be around people.
So I took that time and focused completely on healing. I read every self-help book I could find. Journaled every day. Did workbooks, meditation, yoga. Educated myself relentlessly. I had a complete identity crisis — I felt like an alien in my own life. Guilt. Shame. Resentment. Anger. Chaotic thoughts. Emotions all over the place.
There were days I thought I would never make it. Nights I cried myself to sleep. Times I really wanted to give up.
I did not waste energy trying to make sure anyone heard my truth. I stopped caring what anyone believed. I focused only on my growth and healing.
And slowly — messily, non-linearly — I got back everything I lost. Twofold.
I went back to school. I earned my certification as a substance abuse counselor and as a peer recovery support specialist. I have worked in inpatient treatment centers for two years. And I am pursuing my PhD in Metaphysical Psychology — because I believe healing is not just clinical. It is cosmic. It is spiritual. It is everything the brochure leaves out.
Here is what I have learned
Recovery is not all sunshine and rainbows.
It is not promises of success, material things, or perfect relationships. And it sure as hell is not linear.
Recovery is returning to a sound mind. Living a self-directed, self-fulfilling life. Holistic — body, mind, and spirit. There are many doorways to recovery. Everyone has the right to recover in the way that works best for them. Honesty, open-mindedness, and willingness are the keys. No single program owns recovery. You make the changes. You make the choices.
Relapse does not have to be part of your story — but it is extremely common. And it does not erase your progress. The opposite of addiction is connection.
I want a space for real conversation. The kind where we talk about all the shit no one wants to talk about. Where we focus on solutions, not just what is going wrong.
This is for anyone surviving on caffeine and chaos. Anyone who feels lost because they have no idea who they are — but keeps trying anyway. Anyone who has messed-up thoughts, who self-sabotages, who feels bored when life is calm and suspicious when things are good.
You can have depression, identity crisis, emotional detachment, and self-hatred — and still be making progress.
Take the fear out of the equation. Unwash your brain.
Let's get unhinged — together.
Credentials & training
The professional side of the unhinged.
C.A.D.C. — Certified Alcohol & Drug Counselor
Earned through two years of working inside inpatient treatment centers — not a classroom. Real people, real crises, real recovery.
C.R.S.S. — Certified Recovery Support Specialist
Lived experience is not a liability. It is the credential. Peer support means showing up as a human first — someone who has actually been there.
SMART Recovery Facilitator
Science-based, self-empowering recovery support. Because there is more than one road out, and every one of them is valid.
Trauma Informed Coach
Trauma does not live in the event — it lives in the nervous system. Trauma-informed means meeting people exactly where they are, without making it worse.
Inpatient Treatment Center Experience
Two years working directly with people in the hardest moments of their lives. That is where this project was born.
Pursuing PhD — Metaphysical Psychology
Because healing is not just clinical. It is cosmic, spiritual, and deeply human in ways a treatment manual will never fully capture.
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